This morning while eating oatmeal I was reminded of the sacrifice of the plants on our behalf. Each grain is precious and include gifts of the earth, rain, sun and the planters and harvesters. These plants have consciousness. They give their lives just as animals and fish are sacrificed for our energy. Gratitude is the most compassionate state of mind.
This is Joy Harjo's ongoing journal of dreams, stories, poems,music, photographs, and assorted reports from her inner and outer travels about Indian country and the rest of the world .
12/25/12
Holy Beings
This is the place Jesus was born.
This is a day that the Christian world celebrates the birth
of Jesus, the Christ, a holy man. He came into the world to bring an immense
light for understanding and compassion. There were signs in the stars and all
around about the impending birth as there are for such souls. He was here on a special mission, to
remind us we are nothing without love, to show us that we are healers, are
capable of miracles and are here to illuminate the world. Jesus was born to a
poor family of refugees, to a mother who was pregnant outside of marriage and a
man who loved her despite her social transgression. His path from birth to death was a challenge.
In each newborn the light is unimpeded. We feel it and see
it and that is why we always gather around these tiny bringers of hope. Each of
us brings light to carry it along the path for the illumination of our
footsteps, and to help each other. We have the choice of either growing it or
covering it. We cannot destroy it.
As a child I read the Bible through twice. Jesus spoke only
words of compassion, peace and understanding. In his words I do not remember
reading rules or doctrine for separation and exclusion. I did not read any
urging to hate anyone because of race, class, sex or sexuality or because they
came to understanding through a different doorway. Yet Christ’s words have been used to take over countries or
peoples (“in the name of God”, “God gave us this land”), to oppress, force
religion, to destroy cultures, languages and other ways of knowing the light. (I
left an evangelical church when I was thirteen because I could no longer bear
the hypocrisy of racism and misogyny. That is my own path. Everyone is
different. Jesus words and path still inspire me. We are all sons and daughters
of the Maker of Light therefore we are brothers and sisters.)
I believed then as I do now that Jesus was a being of light
sent to remind us we are beings of light. So was the Buddha, Mohammed…
This morning as the light comes up over a day that
celebrates the birth of this Jesus may we honor and grow love or compassion for
each other, beyond religion, beyond any separation politics. In Mvskoke
language the word for this concept is vnvketckv.
In Navajo language it is hozhoo. In
Hawaiian it is aloha. May we forgive
ourselves and each other, love ourselves and each other as we make a new world,
beginning this day, with each other. We are each born of holy beings. When we took breath in, we
promised.
12/22/12
Back
Back from story gathering in New Orleans. One of the trails from Congo Square leads here, to the Mvskoke Nation. What a life, and music sings it all.
12/19/12
From Lafayette, Louisiana
To New Orleans this morning for research for We Were There When Jazz Was Invented project. When I entered Lafayette last night I entered a different story realm. The alligator people are prominent, as are long-legged birds, and the French, African and indigenous peoples and their stories and music--
Time is an incredible cook.
Time is an incredible cook.
12/18/12
Red Dawn
Beautiful dawn this morning. Red bird and I watched it together. What emerged from the hem of light is this:
What if there were no right or wrong, rather, we are experiencing a story stream to understand, to grow compassion? I believe that we become every story until we learn not to judge, or hate. I have experienced this in my own life. How quickly I am placed in any situation that I have previously judged or scorned. If I feel it utterly, then I am able to let it go, and keep moving, with love.
What if there were no right or wrong, rather, we are experiencing a story stream to understand, to grow compassion? I believe that we become every story until we learn not to judge, or hate. I have experienced this in my own life. How quickly I am placed in any situation that I have previously judged or scorned. If I feel it utterly, then I am able to let it go, and keep moving, with love.
12/16/12
Yes that was me you saw shaking
with bravery, with a government issued rifle on my back. I’m sorry I could not greet you, as you
deserved, my relative.
They were not my tears. I have a
reservoir inside. They will be
cried by my sons, my daughters if I can’t learn how to turn tears to stone.
Yes, that was me standing in the
back door of the house in the alley, with fresh corn and bread for the
neighbors.
I did not foresee the flood of
blood. How they would forget our friendship, would return to kill the babies
and me.
Yes, that was me whirling on the
dance floor. We made such a racket
with all that joy. I loved
the whole world in that silly music.
I did not realize the terrible
dance in the staccato of bullets.
Yes. I smelled the burning grease
of corpses. And like a fool I
expected our words might rise up and jam the artillery in the hands of
dictators.
We had to keep going. We sang our grief to clean the air of
turbulent spirits.
Yes, I did see the terrible black
clouds as I cooked dinner. And the messages of the dying spelled there in the
ashy sunset. Every one addressed:
“mother”.
There was nothing about it in the
news. Everything was the
same. Unemployment was up. Another queen crowned with flowers. Then there were the sports scores.
Yes, the distance was great
between your country and mine. Yet
our children played in the path between our houses.
No. We had no quarrel with each other.
c Joy Harjo
12/12/12
Human Being Being
It is almost three in the morning here. I will not put the FB page down. Tomorrow I go to the West Bank. I have learned more by being here than signing a paper from a safe room.
I realize that I was defensive very quickly and probably should have waited to make any statement. I really didn't know about the boycott. I have not been in the academic world for awhile. And I real
I realize that I was defensive very quickly and probably should have waited to make any statement. I really didn't know about the boycott. I have not been in the academic world for awhile. And I real
ly do have questions about boycotts of the arts and cultures because dialogues between artists and cultural thinkers take us beyond the laws and borders of countries.
Yet, I understand given the history why stepping into Israel in this time is controversial and could be perceived as crossing a line in support of killing. I am not a killer. Nor do I condone killing. I believe in human rights.
My art demands that I stand as a truth teller. The spirit of art is the toughest teacher and I believe it has led me here to stand in this place. It is not an easy place to be misunderstood and attacked by those with whom you feel an alliance. I believe there is a reason for it though I don't quite understand all of it yet. I don't know that much but have to be true to what I have learned.
I do know that I will attempt to use this energy to the best of my ability for some kind of healing and understanding. I believe that in the end compassion and seeing each other as beloved relatives, even our enemies, is more powerful than guns.
Yet, I understand given the history why stepping into Israel in this time is controversial and could be perceived as crossing a line in support of killing. I am not a killer. Nor do I condone killing. I believe in human rights.
My art demands that I stand as a truth teller. The spirit of art is the toughest teacher and I believe it has led me here to stand in this place. It is not an easy place to be misunderstood and attacked by those with whom you feel an alliance. I believe there is a reason for it though I don't quite understand all of it yet. I don't know that much but have to be true to what I have learned.
I do know that I will attempt to use this energy to the best of my ability for some kind of healing and understanding. I believe that in the end compassion and seeing each other as beloved relatives, even our enemies, is more powerful than guns.
12/11/12
Down
I will be taking Facebook down tonight for awhile. Thanks to my supporters. Thanks to those who disagreed with my stance but were willing to dialogue with civility. We live in a circle. A circle has no sides. Maybe the circle of life on this earth has been broken. Maybe not--Either way, I do not condone killing of anyone. Never have...
12/10/12
Tel Aviv
I sit in a hotel room in Tel Aviv. I am far from
my tribal home in Oklahoma. In eternal time, each is a room in the same heart.
I was invited to perform and speak here at Tel
Aviv University several months ago. I was a guest here nearly twenty years ago
and remembered this place with a great fondness. I recalled the open
discussions and the cultural mix of students. I accepted the invitation.
I am aware of the nearly unbearable political
strife here. These lands are in the heart area of this Earth. The Jewish people
consider these lands their homelands. They have survived countless persecutions
and suffered as they made their way home. The Palestinian people are captive in
their own homes. There are checkpoints to enter and leave. They do not own title
to a country. They are not free. This situation is much like that of my people.
We were force-marched from our homelands. Then our lands of resettlement were
stolen again.
I am not so naïve as to think art is beyond
politics. The arts are and have been used in the regeneration of the spirit of
the people. They carry blood,
memory and cultures. The arts can also be co-opted for political gain or loss. I
am in the service of the source of the poetry and music. With that spirit there
is no bargaining with governments, religions or ideologies.
The morning after I
left on my journey I received an email from a friend and colleague. He asked me
to reconsider my trip. This was the first I learned of the US Campaign for the
Academic and Cultural Boycott of Israel. I was puzzled at this request
at such a late hour because this colleague had known of my plans to go to Tel
Aviv for while.
I came here for the opportunity to speak with and hear the voices of
the people, especially the young. I came to be in support of justice and
compassion. I don’t believe that the majority of the people in these lands or
anywhere in the world are in support of the killings. Now my social media pages
and message boxes are filled with a campaign to force a boycott, with messages
of polarization, as if there is one way to poetry, resistance or empowerment. There
are also messages of support.
I will never forget being on stage the opening night of a large poetry
festival in Durban, South Africa. Then U.S. President George Bush was bombing the
Gulf and everyone hated the Americans. Each participating poet was given an
elaborate introduction, except for me. I was introduced: “This is Joy Harjo.
She is an American.” The heavy silence that followed was filled with hate. I
was an object of contempt no matter what I sang or what I said for the rest of
the conference. I was not in support of the killings on my behalf by the U.S.
government. I had actively opposed them, but in the collective audience mind, I
was implicated.
I feel that same atmosphere of censure now in the ultimatum that I am
being given to boycott. I admire and respect the scholars and artists who have
backed the boycott. I stand with their principles, but they will not see it
that way.
I refused an invitation to the White House because I disagreed with
George W. Bush and his politics. I stepped down from a tenured university
position with security and benefits to register my disapproval of unethical
practices involving a colleague and students and the persecution of other
faculty members who objected. I have always stood in support of human rights, and
the Palestinian cause has always been close to my heart.
I will perform at the university as I promised, to an audience that
will include Palestinian students. The students have written in support of me
being here. I will let the words and music speak for that place beyond those
who would hurt and destroy for retribution, or to be right. It is my hope that my
choice will generate discussion and understanding for many paths to justice.
Joy Harjo
December 10, 2012 Tel Aviv
12/4/12
Tiempo
"Tiempo" was my answer in a dream about music. It was the correct answer. I was happy to be studying music seriously. Last night and this morning panicked about time running away from me. I need my art. The business of it right now is eating everything. I believe most artists go through this. Female artists even more so--because we always have obligations that men do not. So....I will breathe "tiempo".
12/1/12
Not Yet
Strange winds and weather this morning. The forecast is 75 degrees! We are in the midst of heavy changes. Many forecast the end of the world as December 21st. I believe it ends and begins with every breath we take, give back and share. It is a rare gift to come to this place called Earth. We promised to learn to dance through storms with grace, to speak the truth with dignity, to sing it. We are not done yet.
11/29/12
11/28/12
Mvto Alligator Stillness
Animals teach us. Last night alligator showed me that with stillness within the waters become still. Then you can see and know.
11/27/12
Lightness of Being
Visited with my cousin George Coser, Jr yesterday at the kitchen table. He's a gift. Always something profound among the stories. The sacred lies at the root of the mundane. And every word is a power element. Each word or sound, whether thought, written or spoken grows our path, the path of our generation, the children, grandchildren, the Earth...We become the ancestors. A sense of play gives a lightness of being. So get out there and play--and be kind while you're at it. To yourself, too.
November 27, 2012
November 27, 2012
11/23/12
Disappeared Website and Scrambled Blog Posts
I received a few notes on Facebook that my website appears to be gone, and some say these posts are scrambled. I have sent an SOS to my webmaster. I DO have a site. It is somewhere in time. Thanks for your patience.
11/21/12
Thanks, Giving
In honor of a day that's come to be known as "Thanksgiving". The holiday's origins are shady, but we've made it a day of thanks.
PERHAPS THE WORLD
ENDS HERE
The world begins
at a kitchen table. No matter what, we must eat
to live.
The gifts of
earth are brought and prepared, set on the table. So it
has been since
creation, and it will go on.
We chase chickens
or dogs away from it. Babies teethe at the corners.
They scrape their
knees under it.
It is here that
children are given instructions on what it means to be human.
We make men at
it, we make women.
At this table we
gossip, recall enemies and the ghosts of lovers.
Our dreams drink
coffee with us as they put their arms around our
children. They
laugh with us at our poor falling-down selves and as
we put ourselves
back together once again at the table.
This table has
been a house in the rain, an umbrella in the sun.
Wars have begun
and ended at this table. It is a place to hide in the
shadow of terror.
A place to celebrate the terrible victory.
We have given
birth on this table, and have prepared our parents for
burial here.
At this table we
sing with joy, with sorrow. We pray of suffering
and remorse. We
give thanks.
Perhaps the world
will end at the kitchen table, while we are laughing and crying, eating of the
last sweet bite.
c Joy Harjo from The Woman Who Fell From the Sky, W.W.
Norton 1994
BEFORE ALL THINGS (first draft)
My eyes peer above
the horizon.
The waters below
this world are my calm.
I hear the
breathing of the sleeping.
I have given birth
here. I will die here, in the not too long awhile.
In this ceremony of
the sun, the earth will be cracked open with light.
We will rise up and
walk the human road.
The clatter of good
and evil will test the heart.
My heart is weary
of the fight.
I’d rather be here
in the balance where I can see everything.
The earth’s soul
shimmers with turquoise.
Particles from the
indigo path to the stars are still in my teeth.
My thinking mind
has been swept clean by currents of the night,
The sky carries the
knowledge of all the other worlds
I watch it for
signs.
It is here where
human imagination has placed our maker.
I feel the maker
here in this breath, in these words, on this earth,
As I surface up
from the deep.
I have seen sharks
there, canoes that fly through time, and plants that walk.
I have bathed in
mystery.
I will pause here
with the maker, in a dusky field before sunrise
Next to stones that
speak of honor--
There is an
eternity of sky.
This morning it is
red.
c Joy Harjo
11/21/2012 Albuquerque, NM
11/19/12
Heavy Matrix of Divisiveness
The story matrix is
heavy. I feel it through my body and soul. There is such divisiveness at the
national and global levels, a divisiveness that begins within each of us.
I need to find some way to walk through the hatefulness with grace, to not become part of it. I must investigate my own house within.
It hurts my heart to hear those close and far away say that there is only one doorway, one religion and all else is evil. That there might be only one religion, one doorway makes no sense at all. Why would a Creator of such a magnificence that s/he creates each of us: human, animal, plant, elements,all life in its multitude of forms, an unrelenting diversity, none of us the same--allow only one doorway to that magnificence?
God didn't create religions. Religions were created by humans, albeit inspired humans. They are human structures to make sense of the spiritual story here, a place for people to come together to worship. They can inspire people to work together for good, or they can promote hatefulness against anyone who is not like them--other religions, races, cultures, women....
I need to find some way to walk through the hatefulness with grace, to not become part of it. I must investigate my own house within.
It hurts my heart to hear those close and far away say that there is only one doorway, one religion and all else is evil. That there might be only one religion, one doorway makes no sense at all. Why would a Creator of such a magnificence that s/he creates each of us: human, animal, plant, elements,all life in its multitude of forms, an unrelenting diversity, none of us the same--allow only one doorway to that magnificence?
God didn't create religions. Religions were created by humans, albeit inspired humans. They are human structures to make sense of the spiritual story here, a place for people to come together to worship. They can inspire people to work together for good, or they can promote hatefulness against anyone who is not like them--other religions, races, cultures, women....
We were each
planted with light. We must tend it so it doesn't go out. We must take care of
our own houses, and share with those in need, rather than destroying the houses
of others or forcibly occupying them with words or stones.
Each word is either a missile of hurt, or a missive of light.
11/13/12
Via Tulsa Airport--Winter Morning
The star people are opening up many doors to time in this season of enormous shift.
Time was always a fluid being.
Each kind of time is a state of mind.
Fear blocks doorways.
Joy opens them.
Music is one of the best teachers of time. It's all about the rhythm.
Ride it! Create with it! In all things---
11/7/12
If You Look from the Moon, We All Look the Same
This morning I open my eyes in my home state, which overwhelmingly voted for Romney. I can feel the din of disappointment here. America is a multi-cultural, multi-racial country. Romney ran a Christian right-white campaign. He made no attempts to be inclusive, as did Obama. The people voted. I am relieved and even feel celebratory. Now we must all work for inclusion of every voice. Each of us has equal value, the rich and the poor, the indigenous tribal belief person and the right-white Christian, the "straight" and the gay/or other expression of love for humanity,. If you look from the moon or beyond, we are earth. If you look from the eyes of the Creator, we are exquisite Creation. Mvto.
10/9/12
Following the Song Line
Reading an essay by Oliver Sacks, "Altered States". In the opening paragraph he states:"To live on a day-to-day basis is insufficient for human beings; we need to transcend, transport, escape...we need to see over-all patterns in our lives. We need....to get beyond ourselves...in states of mind that allow us to travel to other worlds, to rise above our immediate surroundings."
Here is the place of poetry, dance and music: the arts. I am studying how to be intoxicated with each moment, how to listen beyond the ordinary realms, how to follow the song line of a story beyond colonized mind constructs that demand we act within rules and laws that ensure our enslavement (see fundamentalist sects of Christianity, or a consumer culture run by multinationals for example) to fear.
In this study I realize that I do not know much at all. I do recognize love, the immense power of connection and compassion. It becomes most obvious in the natural world, at sunrise and sunset. It is then I see the connection between ancestors who love us, who we are now, and the children and grandchildren who follow.
As I get beyond myself I realize that I am closer. All roads leads to and from the heart.
Yesterday when I peered down at my heart to ask a question, it looked up at me with an immense shine. My loose footing steadied.
We will make it.
We will all make it.
9/21/12
Recent Radio Interview On First Person Radio
RECENT Radio Interview
On First Person Radio
with Laura Waterman Wittstock
Hear Interview:
Joy’s Interview is at 7:40 in the recording.
http://migizi.org/media/FPR_2012-09-12.mp3
Joy’s Interview is at 7:40 in the recording.
http://migizi.org/media/FPR_2012-09-12.mp3
More Information: http://tinyurl.com/6tna7hm
Joy at National Book Festival in DC
Reading and Book Signing
Saturday, September 22
At the DC National Mall
10:55-11:40 am Joy Harjo/Book signing at noon.
More Information: http://www.loc.gov/bookfest/author/joy_harjo
9/11/12
Joy Harjo RADIO Interview September 12
First Person Radio
Wed. September 12, 2012
KFAI 9 - 10 am Central Time
Local Stations: 90.3 Minneapolis & 106.7 St. Paul
Listen on kfai.org/firstpersonradio
or MIGIZI at http://tinyurl.com/6tna7hm
9/5/12
September 8th Joy Harjo Performance
September 8th
Joy Harjo Performance
and she will MC the Indian Summer Music Festival
7 pm
Indian Summer Music Festival, Milwaukee Lakefront
Henry Maier Festival Park, 200 North Harbor Drive, Milwaukee, WI
September 6th Poetry and Music Performance w/ Larry Mitchell
September 6th
Poetry and Music Performance w/ Larry Mitchell followed by book signing
Returning The Gift Writers and Storytellers Conference 2012
7 pm
Weasler Auditorium at Marquette University
1506 W. Wisconsin Avenue
Milwaukee, WI
9/3/12
My last Muscogee Nations News Column: July 2012
Itʻs summer and Indian stories are in the making everywhere.
The days are long and languid and the nights are warm and full of singing, full
of story potential. Everybody’s singing stomp dance, powwow, church, and
humming popular songs with ear buds in their ears. And it’s not just two-legged
humans but all the other humans: birds, frogs, insects and too many mosquitoes.
One of these days Iʻd like to start collecting some of those
contemporary “old” Indian stories. Many of them have their beginnings in the
summer, but are usually told on long winter nights. One category of these stories
that youʻll never find in the publishing world is painting stories. Like many
of you, (some of you behaved, like my sister Margaret) I lived through those
wild Indian parties and 49ʻs as a high school student at the Institute of
American Indian Arts and a student at the University of New Mexico. I see them
now as part of a test, a kind of coming of age. Some of us made it through,
barely, some of our friends…didnʻt…and others are still stuck there trying to
catch the thrill of the first high. Some good stories came out of the journey
because we needed them to make it.
Laughter is the grease that slides us through difficulty, even tragedy.
Painting was a tradition at those parties. The first person
to pass out was the canvas. We young women would dig through our purses and backpacks
and pull out fingernail polish, tape, glue, cotton balls and any other items
that might be decorative. (I hear superglue later made an appearance.) Oh, and
scissors if the painting posse was being especially devious. And then the
victim was…decorated on the face, arms, and sometimes…other…places. Imagine
waking up and looking in the mirror. One of the best painting stories was told
to me by an Umatilla man who has many, many contemporary “old” stories. He told
of waking up to the sun on his face, naked on a roof without a ladder, his body
painted…everywhere.
And then thereʻs the classic kind, like the story my cousin
George Coser, Jr. told us the other day as we drove downtown Tulsa on the way
to the Oklahoma Jazz Hall of Fame. “There used to be a church over there. They
used to serve food for the homeless,” he said as he pointed to a parking lot.
Then he told of a friend of his driving over to pick him and a buddy up to take
them out to lunch. They were excited and as they headed to Tulsa imagining all
their favorite eating places there. His friend pulled up to the church and next
thing he knew they were standing in line for their free lunch! Now thatʻs a
real Indian story!
Then there are the other kinds of stories that feed the soul
of our tribal culture in a different way. Those are the stories we heard at the
Thlopthloccco Tribal Town meeting out near Okemah, attended by ceremonial
grounds and other cultural leaders a few weeks ago. These were the deep
philosophical stories of the roots of meaning for our people, with the
overhanging question of how are we going to continue as a Mvskoke people, when
many of the children do not know their clans or arenʻt brought into the
function of the clans? There is
never one answer but many answers, many stories. Another important story we
heard was by the Mvskoke Food Sovereignty Initiative, about the restoration of
and reculturing of plants that have traveled with us and nurtured us through
our human stories.
Mvto, mvto to all the culture bearers, those who choose to remember
in a time of forgetting. Mvto to the spirits of all the stories that carry us
to laughter, to deeper understanding of our predicament, our place here on this
Earth.
This Song is a Pathway
There is a small bird that is not flashy and loud
like the blue jay who lives here. Blue jay likes everyone to know he’s here and
is especially good looking. That little bird is not the color of passion, and is
not known to carry good luck to humans like the redbird. Nor does it blush with
orange on its chest which marks it as a keeper of knowledge of the history of a
place like the robin whose family has lived her for generations. You would miss
this small bird if you scanned the horizon. It is small and brown. Yet, it has
a tone so pure your heart opens so it can know the movement of love that is
within the architecture of all life. That tone is a doorway. I need that bird’s
song this morning. I use it as my path to enter this new day. When I step out
into this song I trust my heart. I can hear it singing
7/9/12
CRAZY BRAVE is officially born!
Today, Talk of the Nation on NPR at 2PM CDT, and tomorrow GOODREADS live conversation at 3PM PDT. Please join in. Tomorrow night The Central Public Library with Keren Taylor moderating. Then, to Seattle, KPFA event in Oakland, Bookworks in Albuquerque. The tour resumes a week later with the Collected Works in Santa Fe, Changing Hands Bookstore in Tempe, Tattered Cover in Denver, the Boulder Bookstore in Boulder, then ends on the 27th at the Alaska Native Heritage Center in Anchorage, Alaska!! See you Soon.
7/8/12
CRAZY BRAVE
There's a post that comes up when you Google CRAZY BRAVE that is title an "Excerpt from Crazy Brave."
For the record, it isn't an excerpt.
It's one of the over a hundred pages I deleted from the manuscript.
And I've rewritten the vignette that now appears as an "excerpt".
Tonight--on a new song from an older poem....
and need to finish packing, and get ready to be on Talk of the Nation tomorrow
with CRAZY BRAVE.
For the record, it isn't an excerpt.
It's one of the over a hundred pages I deleted from the manuscript.
And I've rewritten the vignette that now appears as an "excerpt".
Tonight--on a new song from an older poem....
and need to finish packing, and get ready to be on Talk of the Nation tomorrow
with CRAZY BRAVE.
7/4/12
CRAZY BRAVE
My memoir CRAZY BRAVE is here. It's official birthdate is July 9th. It took me fourteen years to birth it, fourteen years in which I pulled out stacks of journals, made timelines, decided to make it a memoir in short stories. My life didn't make neat short stories. David Sedaris can do it, make tight, crafted vignettes with a biting and perceptive humor. And as much as I love humor (I've watched most of the comedy acts on Netflix) my writing voice veers toward the earthy mystical. In the past I tried to lure the spirit of my voice (writing, saxophone, speaking, singing) to a more pop style. It refuses. It has a dignity all its own, and it is constructed of a web of time and memory beyond this right now human mind.
A memoir teaches you to write it.
Then I made a collage of poetry, vignettes, short stories....it was....almost...working...I could have slid it through in that manner. But it wasn't right. Not yet.
So I started over. I let the story start where it wanted and go where it wanted. I had wanted to corral it in safe places. It wanted to explore all that had silenced me. I gave in to the story. And then I rewrote, revised, many, many times. The last revision was in my mother's sewing room in Oklahoma, where I was living as she was dying last summer. I returned to help her.
At night I would revise. I cut a hundred pages to make it tight. I read the next to the last revision to my friend Pam Kingsbury who lives in the northwest corner of Alabama, near Muscle Shoals, for three nights in a row, around ten o'clock at night. I have to hear it read aloud, to feel the spirit of it, how it wants to go...
And now it's almost here.
I give thanks to the spirit of the story. I never know where it will lead me.
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I was nervous about my family reading CRAZY BRAVE. Yesterday, my stepsister, who was the daughter of the stepfather in the memoir told me that she noticed I had been very careful, that I had held back. The stories about her father and what happened to all of us were much worse.
I still haven't heard from other family members. My sister Margaret gave it her approval.
A sister-in-law was concerned for me. She thinks people will think I made it all up. But I have witnesses, I said. She's still concerned. No one ever believed her. She told me other stories I hadn't heard, as did a sister-in-law who was a close confidant of my mother, her mother-in-law.
CRAZY BRAVE keeps attracting more stories. I want it to inspire others to claim their story, no matter the path of it, no matter the failures and successes.
This isn't just my story but it echoes the story of many others in the world.
6/15/12
Joy Harjo Opens for The Temptations at Muscogee (Creek) Nation Festival
The Muscogee (Creek) Nation Festival Saturday, June 23rd
Joy will be performing sometime between 5-7 pm opening for The Temptations.
The Muscogee (Creek) Nation Festival began in 1974 as a celebration of Muscogee culture and heritage and has become a major family gathering for many Muscogee families. All activities are free and open to the public. This much-loved festival invites all people to experience the games, competitions and festival events during the month of June. Be a part of the largest and longest running festival in Okmulgee County and join the Muscogee people in a celebration of life.
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4/18/12
Muscogee Nation News Column April 2012
Estonko--This morning is a Georgia morning. I’m
here for a two-week residency at a small women’s college in Decatur. It is
warm, as it has been in Oklahoma, and everything is blooming. Since I arrived
it has been raining flower petals and pollen. The pollen count has been
enormous, shattering any records in known time in this part of the world. I
stood next too a truck that was streaked with yellow pollen. Because I have
spent muchtime around Navajos and Pueblos I naturally consider that we are
being blessed by such fertility. Yet, it’s been rough on sinuses and lungs. Any
gift comes with its responsibility, its cost.
I bring my breakfast outside to concrete bench,
facing East.The Sun embraces and feeds all of us, the many plants, the fvsjates
with their spring mating songs making attractive webs, the many insects and
creatures,including humans who are drinking of the light of the sun. I want to
join two women who have taken a break from the kitchen. I like the up-and-down
sound of their voices, and the pitch of their storytelling and laughter.
I remember that this is old Mvskoke country and
try to settle back in the place of knowing to get a sense of who and what was
here, before Mr. George Washington Scott who founded this college. The settlers
here were an adamant bunch. They were basically, collected as the State of
Georgia, the first state in the union to officially outlaw indigenous people.
They brutally forced Mvskoke and Cherokee out, the first forced removal before
the Trail of Tears. I am staying in the Alumnae House. The bed in my room
belonged to Mr. Scott whose face looks at me from a picture over the bed. Now,
that fact concerns me a little. I have to cover his image. There won’t be any
partying in this room, though my partying days are long behind me.
What a beautiful land this is, and to leave it
was the beginning of the breaking of the heart of our people. There are helpful
plants everywhere I look. And I understand that the deer were plentiful.
This Saturday many Mvskoke are meeting at the site of the Battle of Horseshoe
Bend over in Alabama. I am planning to find a car and drive over. I’ve been
there twice. The first time was about fifteen years ago, when I was invited to
speak at Auburn University. I was taken out one day to the grounds of the
massacre. My grandfather of seven generations, Monahwee (here they call him
“Menawa”) was one of the leaders of that uprising against an unlawful move from
our homelands to Indian Territory, far to the west. I walked the grounds from
East to the North and all the way around. I felt such sadness that it settled
in my lungs. I got bronchitis that day and I had never had bronchitis before. I
also felt how the spirit of our people was still part of the land, the plants,
and the place. We carry it with us through the generations. Seven generations
is not long at all, in the time scheme of the present world.
I understand why some of the people warn us not
to go back. What we find here could be difficult to carry. But I believe that
the spirits of our people who are still here are happy to see us, to know that
when we left we carried the fire and we made it. We are still here. Mvto---
4/17/12
Howling Song
Iʻm outside playing flute this morning and the robin who has been coming over to sing with me balanced on the fence. We both turned at the same time, to the fenced dog across the street who was howling along with the flute! We caught the dog mid howl. He felt our looks on him, then looked "sheepish"--Funny!
3/20/12
Muscogee Nation News Column March 2012
Hensci—It’s early spring. Wild onions are beginning to
sprout in my yard here in Glenpool, and the birds are all on the hunt for
mates. There’s a Robin family that has been here for years. They know my sister
Margaret and her family and have noticed that they are no longer living here.
They have been checking me out and I have to tell them who I am, where I’ve
been, and that I will be the one staying here. Once I tell them with my mind,
they fly off, satisfied. They are probably the 30th generation. Basically
this yard is their territory. I will have to fit myself in. The same goes for
the Redbird family here. They’re also territorial. They sing every morning and
help me put my feet on the ground and keep going.
Sam Proctor asked me when I’m having a party. I will and
everyone will be invited. (Especially you, Sam.) And there will be music. I’ve
always loved the story of my grandfather Monahwee (Menawa) who when visited by
a government agent on official business, came out to properly greet him then
excused himself by telling the agent that he was partying with his people and
wouldn’t be done for a few days. He met with the agent two days later.
Now, that’s a good reminder for many of us. When we’re about
to let our last breath go on this earth, will we be regretful about paperwork,
emails or Facebook, or missing a sale at Kohl’s? What will we wish we had done?
What words are we carrying that need to be said? What could we do to lift the
burden of someone? A good party
can be a tonic for everyone. We’re human beings. We light up by sharing
stories, songs, laughter, and even crying together when we need to grieve. And dancing feeds all your systems with
energy. Music lifts us up.
My memoir Crazy Brave will be officially out in July
so I may have the party between June and July. The Oklahoma Jazz Hall of Fame
has offered their facilities. I’ll let you know. Gary White Deer also has a
memoir coming out sometime this year and a party between us is also appealing. I
got a sneak preview. His memoir, Touched by Thunder is witty, funny and
insightful, in a very Mvskoke way (he’s Choctaw with Mvskoke relatives).
When I was down in Mexico in the town of San Miguel de
Allende I kept thinking of our people. The way I understand it is that some of
the migration paths came up from the south. Others of us came up from the
earth, and some arrived in our traditional homelands from the West. I saw
Mvskoke-looking people everywhere, though most were officially Mestizo. To
claim yourself as “Indio” is as demeaning as it was in our parent’s
generations. In fact, when I tried to get a person of the tribal people
indigenous to the area there to open my performance, I was told by a conference
official “there are indigenous people, but they aren’t really active here
anymore”. I knew that wasn’t true because I’d seen them all through town. Someone
else confirmed later that yes, there are indigenous people there with living
cultures.
A beautiful young Huichol woman attended the conference
where I performed and spoke. Her culture was alive in her. She, like many
others, was embracing her cultural language and knowledge, despite the
prevailing colonial attitude toward the “Indio”. She was concerned, as were
many, about the plan for a Canadian oil company to construct a huge pipeline
through Mexico. Some things don’t change, like the attitude of destroyers that
it’s alright to run a pipeline through a country, break up the land, destroy peoples
and cultures, and suck out of excessive amounts of oil, gas, coal or uranium that
were never meant to be pulled out of the earth in such quantities.
Before I forget, there was a fiesta there, a party in honor
of the speakers, who also included Margaret Atwood and Elena Poniatowska. There
were Spanish and Indian dancers, mariachi bands, folk dancing, lots of good
food, and fireworks. I celebrated with everyone.
And I celebrate spring as I write this. Those wild onion
dinners are coming up—time for a good party!
Mvto--
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